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March 22, 2012 · 7:01 pm

Thank You, More Please

I wrote in my journal a year ago when I moved to Colorado the first time. I want a bartending job, a free place to live and a lover. Within two weeks I had two of them and within a month the third. I didn’t realize I had even asked for that specifically until months later looking at the date on the entry and seeing how it had all panned out. Letting your list of desires lay on a page and then completely forgetting about them allows the universe to work it’s magic and pull those things to you. Not worrying about them or forcing decisions for how you think things should show up, leaves it all up to chance. The thing about the law of attraction is you will never know the “how” ahead of time. Things tend to manifest in strange and unexpected ways. You couldn’t possibly think up the “how”; the “what” is all you need to worry about and then, don’t worry about it. Release it through written word or opening up to someone in your life, what things you are committed to creating or manifesting and then go about your day. Go to ten interviews and give each all you have. Go on ten dates and see what qualities are endearing and supportive to your life. Look at every place you could possibly tolerate living, or every offer a friend brings up in conversation and the right one to choose will always become obvious. And sometimes the one you choose will be rough, the roommates will be messy, or the job will only last a couple months, the rough ones are actually the perfect thing to do also. They teach you the lessons that are made just for you, to keep pushing you along your perfect path.

People often search for the perfect lover or the perfect car or just the right job and 401k, hoping that at some point there will be no more searching. That at some point there will be sublime happiness and contentment and nothing left to worry about. This is simply not reality. Making your life about finding that end point, that perfect state, is to ignore the joy in the present. To refuse to be here now. To stay present in the process, to trust that even the hard times are the right times for you in the moment, to say yes to each situation, good or bad, that shows up for you: This is the meaning of life. Thank you, more please. Gratitude. Grace, kindness and thanks in each moment. This is the way to make it through. This is the way to add to the light. This is it.

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March 19, 2012 · 12:29 pm

The Rat Race

“The end of the human race will be that it will eventually die of civilization.”

-Ralph Waldo Emerson

Everyone in New York is in such a hurry to get where they’re going but paying little to no attention to where they are. I’ll cross the street when it’s clear and people waiting across from me will start walking too, not realizing that a Mack truck is now speeding towards them. Or in a throng of people someone will stop dead in their tracks and force everyone around them to change course. Like salmon traversing obstacles in a river. I’m sure part of it is due to the billion tourists but it seems to me that a very small percentage of people are aware of their surroundings at any moment on the street. Maybe it’s different for me because I don’t have a job to think about, worry about, bitch about. Maybe this is just what humans have become. So wrapped up in their epic ego-centric dramas that they can’t even look left for the mack truck.

And eye contact is another story entirely.

On the rare occasion that you actually make eye contact with another person on the street, it is so uncommon that it feels like an invasion of privacy. “I’m walking here, busy with my whole brain full of my whole world full of personal drama. Who are you to try and connect? To look me in the eye like you know me?” Quick get the phone out or quick look away. Look left, there might be a truck coming.

The poodle with the safety-cone-collar, and a purple bow pooping in the park. A little self conscious. Lifting it’s feet up higher than necessary.

The mumbling hobo in the corner, a string of drool dripping from his mouth.

The neon BAR sign, the R flickering a secret message in Morse code.

The all black New Yorker ensembles, where one red line on a Burberry clutch stands out.

The bag lady practically swimming through the crowd.

The bald guy in a suit. Sprinting through the park in his polished shoes. Talk about a rat race.

The psychedelic rainbow warrior meditating on a bench. (benchitating?)

Wandering through Grand Central, taking pictures, the song “Bittersweet Symphony” comes on. There’s a dark note to New York. Beautiful, full of art, music and endless inspiration but disconnected, blind, totally run by getting on the up and up. I love it, but even the trees seem a little worn out and sad. A heavy layer of schmutz climbing up every one. It is a bittersweet symphony, but you don’t want to look away.

Hopped on a train, got off when it felt right, found a park to sit in and right next to me a Med Mob (meditation flash mob) sits down. About 15 people sitting in meditation at five pm in Downtown Manhattan. Everyone is staring and taking pictures as they walk by in a hurry but these 15 people seem to me to be the only ones getting somewhere. So I sit and close my eyes with them and the honking and sirens and clicking heels fades and my breath comes into focus. Right place, right time, as always.